March 16, 2016: My Invisible Company

~by Louis Templeman


It is Monday morning after Thanksgiving weekend. I have said my prayers. I am dressed for work. It is 8:30 a.m. I will leave for work in 30 minutes. I am suffering from a powerful fear. Sort of nameless, like the dread of an earthquake, a wreck or an arrest. I cannot breathe well and thinking is a chore. It must be another of the panic attacks that I have been suffering the last couple of years. Last night as I was driving home, I felt this same fear, yet in a milder form. Somewhere on the drive back, as I was calling on God, it hit me in a peaceful and powerful way that Christ is protecting me. He will not let anyone hurt me. I won’t be hurt anymore. It was marvelous to have such confidence and comfort. It so paradoxical to have such confidence and such fear at the same time.

It has been hard to wake up and get out of bed the past week or two. But I do it. The force of habit is my best defense against acedia (or sloth, or the feeling of just checking out and suspending all living and all decisions). I am sensing a particular spiritual attack against me, and the epiphany last night was a comfort in the midst of this storm. I keep saying over and over to each of the Holy Trinity. I believe you. I hope in you. I trust in you. I adore you. I love you.

Another of my positive affirmations is: “I have power. I have love. I have a sound mind. I have the mind of Christ.” Such words of life I continually quote to myself, particularly at those times when the darkness fails to lift.

I just heard in a homily that Catherine of Sienna once prayed to God, “O mad lover, you have fallen in love with me your creature.” Then the priest said, “The only tragedy in life is not to become a saint.” This ambition is still left in me. No matter what I may have done to myself (or to others) I still have this option open. God has not allowed me to remove the one great thing from my present and my future. The great calling of holiness and sainthood is always open to the humble, the patient and the obedient.

I will leave for work in 15 minutes. I will pray in tongues. I will love the brethren whom I will work with today. I will encourage them in Christ. I will receive peace from my lover the Holy Spirit. I will prosper through the intercession of the Blessed Virgin, Padre Pio, St Therese of Lisieux, St. Joseph, Blessed Solanus, St Jude and St Catherine of Alexandria. I walk in great company. My family and my friends are praying for me. As long as I do not isolate myself and mope about in negativity I will walk in great company.

Sometimes faith is a dry, practical decision keep on doing the next right thing. God be honored through my faith and action today. As I walk through my troubles I will remember: I have power. I have love. I have a sound mind. I have the mind of Christ.

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Louis writes from Jacksonville, Florida where he lives with his old friend and wonderful bride, Joy. They transformed their friendship into the sacrament of marriage on August 30, 2012. They share their home with two self-absorbed, playful, twin cats (Flo and Jet) and one very allusive and arrogant cat named D. Louis has recently been diagnosed with Parkinson’s and is fighting the good fight. Much of what he writes these days he is sharing his journey with us. Please keep Louis and his wife Joy in your prayers.

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