~by Louis Templeman
July 27, 2015: Can You Go By Yourself?
“Can you go to the bathroom by yourself?” There were only two of us in the examining room. I wanted to look around and find someone else she could be talking to but I was in a corner chair. It was just us. She was talking to me. Two troubling ideas assaulted me. First, this is a reasonable question for people with my diagnosis of Parkinson’s disease. Secondly, this could be prophetic, a scenario I cannot escape.
I don’t know really. It is all fear talking. The specter of fear projecting images on the unknown. Ultimately, the struggle is summed up in the question of just how much integrity and peace will I have on hand as I awaken to the cold reality of my mortality. The Apostle Paul spoke of death as the last enemy. And other poets and saints state that the work of Christ has turned the tomb into a womb that births our very beings and personalities into eternity.
I take off my hat to these saints and poets. I want that ethereal perspective when it is time for me to cross the bar. Nevertheless I want to delay as long as possible any need for assistance when I need to go to the bathroom. Amen?
Louis writes from Jacksonville, Florida where he lives with his old friend and wonderful bride, Joy. They transformed their friendship into the sacrament of marriage on August 30, 2012. They share their home with two self-absorbed, playful, twin cats (Flo and Jet) and one very allusive and arrogant cat named D. Louis has recently been diagnosed with Parkinson’s and is fighting the good fight. Much of what he writes these days he is sharing his journey with us. Please keep Louis and his wife Joy in your prayers.
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